April

Well, I made it! It's April, and the month that I will have our baby. Even if I go 2 weeks over (please no, please no), which is the longest they'll let me go without an induction, our baby will still be here before the month is out.

I remember when we found out in August. I was only 4 weeks pregnant when we found out, and I thought that there was NO WAY I'd make it until April to meet our baby. Now April is here, and I'm actually torn. I'm ready to meet him/her. I'm ready to see what they look like and act like. Will he/she have hair? Will it be curly? What color eyes will be staring up at me the first time we come face to face? (How bad will labor be is a question that keeps popping into the forefront of my mind, but one I try not to dwell on.)

Months of worry and waiting...wondering if my body was going to betray us at every turn...and now here we are, April 1st, and our baby will be out in thee world any day now.

As ready as I am, I am going to miss being pregnant. (I am looking forward to getting my body back though!) I'll miss the kicks and the just us time. The bonding is so...well, it's not describable, but...WOW. I am sure I'll miss the convenience of not having to change diapers! lol! Still, the last two or three days have gotten increasingly uncomfortable very quickly. I am nauseous and tired and feel so very stretched to my limit...literally and figuratively. Added to the fact that we've now made it to April...I'm ready!

I still insist that I do NOT want the baby out until he/she is fully developed and ready...but the minute they are I have given specific instructions that he/she is NOT to dilly dally around in there. (Not that I expect my child to listen...it's MY child after all!) I figure that there is a more than cooked baby in there right now, just adding on a couple of extra pounds so that Mommy will be sure to rip 8 ways from Sunday! That would be just like my Little Bunny Boo.

I was very, VERY tempted to use my condition as an advantage today...after all, who would have even thought to question me if I had called and said I was in labor? No one would have probably even considered the date until I cheerfully cried out "April Fools!!!"...but I also figured God would get me good if I did something like that, and I'd probably be pregnant until Christmas! So...I didn't. Not to anyone. Still, I can't shake the feeling that I'm passing up a WONDERFUL chance that I'll probably never have again. What are the chances I'll be pregnant and this close to delivering ever again on April Fools Day? *sigh* Darn my conscience!

My next appointment is Friday morning. Hoping for more progress!!!

Thanks for Reading!